She told me "I’m home now"


When she came home from tennis school,

still left the afterglow of her workout,

and told me "I’m home now", 

she was a girl and innocent.

 

I wanted to hug her with my eyes.

Her skin was smooth, firm and very softly.

How many years has it been like that?

No, it may be the first time.

 

Like the first time,

every new discovery feels like the first time.

I have thought since seeing her first time she should be more interested and confident of herself.

But it's a problem if she would have it too much,  haven't it ?

 

It has been a long  time since  nothing happened,

and  bad things just happen of a sudden.

But now that I'm doing well, her health is the most important gift.

 

Anyway, let's do what we need to do

in a small and sure way from here.

Do my small feelings support her?

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