hold on memories of A

 Miss A lived in a world different from the world I had lived in until then. At first she looked like a very well-bred young lady, but she wasn't from a very wealthy family. Being an only child, she must have been taken care of. As a toddler, she was sent to classes to learn to play the violin, but it didn't seem to last long.

In the beginning, there was little conversation. We used to go home together after school because we were going in the same direction, but I can't remember what I was talking about.

Perhaps she wanted to make sure I was human being, since I never said anything vulgar.I remember being surprised when she suddenly retorted that she couldn't imagine you peeing.

No girl had ever said that before. Miss A was a girl who uttered words from her own delusion. I wondered if the delusion in Miss A and my mind at that time had the same part somewhere.It would have been interesting if I could have asked the question whether we had same kind of illusion.

I just realized that Miss A may have been trying her best to make fun of me. She must have been trying to get me into the mundane. It was. No matter how lofty things I kept thinking about, when I was hungry, I had to eat something, and it seemed like a hassle for me.

But if it were true, Miss A would had already acquired a technique to hide her true intentions, which was the exact opposite of what she looks like. Because her face seemed to follow me with obedient, longing eyes.

But I want to say that I was a pure youth. It is only through recollection that one can go back to that time and discover various possibilities that can change the past. Although it is sound like a waste, but it will be thrilling to think that it affects the meaning of my life.

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